Hmmmm.

Peace at last? Too early to tell.

Hell.

Absolute WORST day of my life. And I was alone with the pain. Alone with my thoughts. Alone with my fears. Alone. Scared.

Wow.

Exhausted.

Light at the end of the tunnel...finally.

Goodnight.

Time.

Never enough time.

Enjoying those precious moments and wishing time would stop...but it doesn't. I have recently learned that quality of time is so much more important than quantity. I want quantity, lots and lots of time, but I am willing to give up lots of time for a few quality, priceless moments...as often as possible.

Hmmmmm...never enough time. Every second counts....

"Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=raVLWnzaXxM&feature=youtube_gdata_player

A cold, dark, AMAZING night.

I was lost...

I heard a line from Amazing Grace this week, in a different song, a Christmas song. Every time I hear this same line I think about the past few months...reflect on how I was lost but how I seem to have found my way. I didn't think that I would ever begin to see light at the end of this tunnel I live in...but the light is so bright right now.

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see."

It's amazing to me how a person can be so lost and the right scenario changes everything...and LOST turns to FOUND....instantly. Especially when LOST turning to FOUND means all of my dreams are coming true.

I once was lost, but now I'm found

I never want anything more.

Let it be.

Oh tonight. Such a horrid ordeal! BUT, I don't care.

Typically, such a day and night would cause me to break down, cause serious anxiety, make me sick, scare me. But, not this time because I refuse to let things that I don't care about bother me. I REFUSE....

And instead...I have chosen to...let it be.

I am infatuated with Marilyn Monroe and have spent lots of time reading about her and reading quotes that she has made famous. Several of her quotes describe how I feel lately...

Enjoy!

"We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets."

"Who said nights were for sleep?"

"If I'd observed all the rules I'd never gotten anywhere."

"Keep smiling, because life is a beautiful thing and there is so much to smile about."

Peace. Tomorrow is another day.

Let it be.

...!

Faith.